I host and facilitate a weekly online men’s bible study and discussion group. As host, I open up the Zoom room a few minutes before the scheduled start time and wait for everyone to join.
For some reason, it really feels strange being on Zoom all by myself. I sit there for a few moments and look at myself. I make sure I look okay. I brush my hair to the side. I make sure the lighting is okay. I make sure I’m not too close or far away from the camera. I shuffle my lesson papers around.
My mind starts to wonder.
- What if no one else shows up? What if they all forget that we’re meeting today. I sent out reminders, so that doesn’t seem possible.
- Maybe I set up the room wrong. No, that’s not possible. I don’t set up that part of the meeting.
- Maybe everyone is traveling or sick, and can’t make it today. Would all fifteen guys would be indisposed on the same day? Doubtful.
- Maybe the internet isn’t working right. I check my email. Everything is in order.
<Ding>
The first person shows up, and seconds later, more appear on my screen. All those thoughts drain from my mind, and our group is underway.
Years ago I had some similar analog thoughts. Analog means we actually met in person. I would open up for an appointment, meeting class, and then sit there wondering if anyone would show up. There were times when I got stood up for an appointment. No call, nothing, just a no show. A few of those and you start to get paranoid.
It really only happened a few times. But one time is enough to get your mind racing with all the “What ifs…”
Waite for it... 